I've decided that since it's a new year and I've had this blog for years and have never really used it...it's time!!! Nobody really knows about my blog right now so it's perfect. Every day I'm going to write a little something about how my day went. I think it will be fun and interesting to read later...even if it's just a few months later. Besides, isn't that the point of a blog anyway???
For years I have struggled to love myself and it's a breath of fresh air to be on the write path for that journey. I've lost a lot of weight this past year...but it's not enough. Not only am I no where near the body I want...I'm still not comfortable in my skin. I feel awkward and embarrassed and I'm nervous people are looking at me and talking about my appearance...I know that I'm being crazy...but in those little moments I can't stop it. But I have finally decided to love myself as a person. I'm funny and loud. And I don't care. If somebody thinks I'm annoying, that's his/her problem. I'm pretty awesome. If you don't like me, don't be my friend. Nobody is forcing you to be around me.
Anyway, I'm off track. Like always. That's kinda my style.
So...everyday...gonna take a picture and document this year. Plus, it will be a good reminder of how far I have come with my weight loss...nah, let's say body and mind transformation. Because that's what it is. Changing how I treat myself and my body. What did I do? How's wedding planning? How's the self-love going? Did something awesome hapen? Did nothing happen? I don't know yet. Guess we'll see the direction of this experiment.
So...how today is so far...it's pretty great. Went to a New Year's Eve party with some great friends and I even got to kiss Dan at midnight. So that's pretty awesome. My kitty is happy and so are we. I work at 9am and I still haven't taken my makeup off and it's 2:30. I should probably get it together and do that....